Dear Paul,

I am having a really bad week and the rain doesn't help.  I cry at the drop of a hat and am walking around an exhausted sleepless zombie and miserable.  I have so many things to do for the Unveiling and get together Memorial Day weekend and am overwhelmed both physically, emotionally and financially.  I am also so upset because I feel like I can't remember everything about you and our life together as clearly as I once did and I keep picturing Marvin and Quincy keeping you warm when you passed and Marvin when I had to put him down. I also see everyone happy in their lives and me not.  I know I should live my life because that is what you want but sometimes it is so darned hard.   I am so sad.  I am quite miserable...worse than usual.  I miss you dreadfully.  Why?